YWAM Improv
Part III


*YwamKenichi gets out of taxi after paying driver
*YwamKenichi stares up at the hotel
YwamKenichi: *sigh* Here it goes...
*YwamKenichi glances sideways and sees a familiar face hidden beyond a street lamp
YwamKenichi: ETHAN??
YwamKenichi: *pales*
*EthanSakurazawa peers to his right shoulder
EthanSakurazawa: Ke....KEN?!?
*EthanSakurazawa slings head towards Ryuji...sees he's faaaaar down the street.....slings head back towards Ken and blushes like mad....but still tries to keep his cool
EthanSakurazawa: ###O_O###.....AA....Anou.....what are you doing here?!
YwamKenichi: Ethan...I..I was looking for you!
Light rain begins to patter down on the dark pavement
YwamKenichi: Um...are you busy now? If you are, I can um...just come back later.
EthanSakurazawa: NO! I'm never too busy for you!! Co...come up w/ me
*EthanSakurazawa walks Ken to the door and opens it for him
YwamKenichi: Are-are you sure?
EthanSakurazawa: *nod nod*
EthanSakurazawa: Of course....*rubs Ken's back and slightly pushes him through the door*
YwamKenichi: oof!
YwamKenichi: Ok, ok :D
EthanSakurazawa: ^_^
EthanSakurazawa: there you go!
YwamKenichi: ^^;;
*EthanSakurazawa walks to the elevator
EthanSakurazawa: Sooo...ummmmm....can you tell me why you're surprising me so suddenly??
EthanSakurazawa: or do you want to wait till we get to the room?
YwamKenichi: I'd like to wait first.
*YwamKenichi shifts awkwardly
EthanSakurazawa: ...........okay
*EthanSakurazawa walks into elevator
EthanSakurazawa: want to push the button?
EthanSakurazawa: ?
YwamKenichi: o.o;; sure ^^;;
EthanSakurazawa: floor 15
EthanSakurazawa: ^_^
YwamKenichi: Ok...
YwamKenichi: . . .
*YwamKenichi pushes button
YwamKenichi: . . .
YwamKenichi: Sometimes...I feel like you still treat me like a kid, Ethan.
EthanSakurazawa: ^_^
EthanSakurazawa: aa sou? ^______________^
YwamKenichi: But I guess that's ok. You've always been...the family I never had.
elevator reaches the floor
*EthanSakurazawa walks out
EthanSakurazawa: you coming?
YwamKenichi: Yeah :]
*YwamKenichi waits for Ethan to unlock the door
*EthanSakurazawa slides the card key into the door and unlocks it
EthanSakurazawa: After you ^_^
*EthanSakurazawa shuts the door and locks it
EthanSakurazawa: Soo.....what is it?
*EthanSakurazawa sits down and watches Ken take a seat on the bed
YwamKenichi: Um...you know how you left after that whole watch incident?
EthanSakurazawa: *nodnod*
*EthanSakurazawa takes in a deep breath
YwamKenichi: See...I...I... *blushes furiously*
EthanSakurazawa: *question mark*
EthanSakurazawa: what is it?
YwamKenichi: Suoh and I...
EthanSakurazawa: ...............................
EthanSakurazawa: *sudden silence*
*YwamKenichi vehemently stares at the floor
*EthanSakurazawa shakily strolls towards Ken, bends down in front of him on the floor and looks into his down-falling eyes
EthanSakurazawa: Ken....what happened?
EthanSakurazawa: *lump in throat*
YwamKenichi: We...hooked up, so to speak - -;;;;;;;;
YwamKenichi: *blushes* It was a mistake!
YwamKenichi: I don't know what happened...it shouldn't have happened. Ethan, I'm so confused!
EthanSakurazawa: ........
*EthanSakurazawa bends down completely onto his knees and looks down
EthanSakurazawa: *thinks to self* 'shitshitSHIT!! This cannot be happening!! Please God....noooo...'
YwamKenichi: I know...it was a bad decision...
EthanSakurazawa: *starts to tear up....but vaguely blurts out a, ".ho....how? ....What....happened exactly?
YwamKenichi: Ethan, I don't know what came over me! I'm sorry. I know this isn't the type of person I should be and - Ethan?
*EthanSakurazawa leans forward
EthanSakurazawa: Ken....what happened?
EthanSakurazawa: Tell me now...everything
YwamKenichi: *blushes* Everything?
EthanSakurazawa: .........O.o;;;;;;; Well if there's detail in there that I shouldn't know about then not everything!!!!
EthanSakurazawa: I mean about you and Suoh
YwamKenichi: But it's not th-the details I'm worried about.
*EthanSakurazawa still trying to hide tears
*EthanSakurazawa takes Ken's hands and looks up into his eyes....Ken obviously notices the tears in his own..
YwamKenichi: Ethan...? *pulls away and stands up* You don't look so well. I'm sorry...I shouldn't be so selfish. Perhaps I should leave...
EthanSakurazawa: Sit DOWN!
YwamKenichi: Huh??
*EthanSakurazawa notices that he screamed too loud
EthanSakurazawa: Ken.....please!
EthanSakurazawa: sit sit sit
YwamKenichi: Are you sure? I don't want to bother you if you don't feel well!
*YwamKenichi hesitates
EthanSakurazawa: I'm sure
EthanSakurazawa: I'm not sick
*EthanSakurazawa watches Ken sit back down on the bed in front of him....and takes his hands again
EthanSakurazawa: I know that I'm not the one that you love, I understand that you have found someone more suitable for you....who understands you more than me...if you'd call it that.
YwamKenichi: No...no!
YwamKenichi: I don't know...
YwamKenichi: I don't know what I feel.
*EthanSakurazawa looks up at him
EthanSakurazawa: Ken......think about Suoh....all that he's done for you
EthanSakurazawa: ever since you've moved to Japan....B4 I came....have you had your nightmares?
YwamKenichi: . . . no . . .
EthanSakurazawa: it was when you saw me that you had them again
YwamKenichi: It can't be because of you.
YwamKenichi: They went away when I was in England with you! It doesn't make any sense!
EthanSakurazawa: Ken...I represent a burden in your past
EthanSakurazawa: You were with me when you were alone
EthanSakurazawa: When you were trying to forget
EthanSakurazawa: But it didn't work
YwamKenichi: un...
EthanSakurazawa: After you and Kaori broke up....that caused an even bigger burden
EthanSakurazawa: So it's not just me...it's her too
YwamKenichi: What...what are you saying then?
EthanSakurazawa: That's why you wanted to go to Japan after all...isn't it? And once you met Suoh...and saw all the shit he went through, you could trust in him.....at least you should have
EthanSakurazawa: I'm saying....that......*chokes up*
YwamKenichi: But I trust you too.
YwamKenichi: I don't understand...
EthanSakurazawa: I.......yo...you shouldn't see me anymore.....for a while....get to know a life where you can forget your burdens and live a happy life with someone that cares for you and makes them go away
EthanSakurazawa: Once you're completely released of your burdens...I will return then...and see what happens
YwamKenichi: You're not a burden to me.
EthanSakurazawa: Ken....yes I am
EthanSakurazawa: Tell me...has anything good come out of me coming??
YwamKenichi: No, you're not!
YwamKenichi: I missed you a lot after I moved here...
YwamKenichi: Now you're saying you don't want to see me anymore?
EthanSakurazawa: NO!! Of course not!!
EthanSakurazawa: I'm just saying.....the hurt you felt for Yukari came about when Kaori opened her big mouth when she first arrived....and I ruined your friendship with Suoh when I got there
YwamKenichi: Nothing good that has to present itself in obvious forms has to come out of your visit. You, yourself, are good enough.
EthanSakurazawa: And ever since then....everything you have tried so hard to forget has come back...and I'm not making it any better. I’m just a waste of your life!! *choke*
YwamKenichi: I just wanted to see you and Kaori again...
YwamKenichi: No!
YwamKenichi: Suoh and I...I don't know where we stand. You haven't ruined our friendship, apparently.
*YwamKenichi is flustered
*EthanSakurazawa starts to cry
YwamKenichi: You, Kaori, and Naoko-obasan are my only family left...
YwamKenichi: Ethan...
YwamKenichi: *hugs Ethan* Why...why are you crying? Please, don't.
*EthanSakurazawa nuzzles into Ken's shoulder and lets it all out
EthanSakurazawa: ....I...I want nothing more than to be with you Ken....that's all I want...that's all I've ever wanted for years now.....
EthanSakurazawa: *chokes*
YwamKenichi: Ethan...
*YwamKenichi's fingers begin to tremble
EthanSakurazawa: But I know I can't have you.....I know you can't think of me like that...I know you don't love me like that....I'm such a fool...I'm sorry....
EthanSakurazawa: *sobs*
YwamKenichi: ‘How...how can I do this to someone so close to me? Why do I keep on hurting the ones I love? What's wrong with me? WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME???’
YwamKenichi: *a tear rolls down, unseen*
YwamKenichi: ‘...Why must I feel so torn inside?...’
EthanSakurazawa: *clutches*
YwamKenichi: ‘What do I do now? Ethan...’
EthanSakurazawa: Ken....I love you. I love you…so much...but I want what’s best for you
*EthanSakurazawa looks into his eyes
YwamKenichi: *stares blankly back*...you love me...
EthanSakurazawa: Please....for real this time....tell me....what do you want to do?
EthanSakurazawa: Stay here?
EthanSakurazawa: Or come back to London?
YwamKenichi: I...
EthanSakurazawa: When you answer me...I'll give you my advice on what to do
YwamKenichi: Ethan...please don't.
YwamKenichi: I have been so oblivious all this time.
EthanSakurazawa: *nods*
YwamKenichi: You've always helped me though it hurt you so much to do so. Now...now I see it. Maybe you're right. Maybe it's best that we don't see each other for a while...till we are both stable.
EthanSakurazawa: *nods*
YwamKenichi: *tears*
YwamKenichi: *clings to Ethan's shirt* I wish it didn't have to be like this!
*EthanSakurazawa places his forehead against Ken's
EthanSakurazawa: It's ok....I know you care for me.....and you're still with me....that's way better than not having you at all in my life
*EthanSakurazawa wipes Ken's tears
YwamKenichi: Mmhmm.
YwamKenichi: *sniffs*
*EthanSakurazawa is a little hesitant....but leans in and kisses Ken's forehead and nuzzles his own against Ken's
EthanSakurazawa: *holds*
*YwamKenichi leans into the embrace and sighs with a shaky breath
YwamKenichi: So...so now what happens?
YwamKenichi: Should...should I leave now, then?
*EthanSakurazawa lets go and gazes into Ken's eyes
YwamKenichi: Do we have to say good bye now? I...
EthanSakurazawa: if...if you want
YwamKenichi: *tears*
EthanSakurazawa: You.....can stay here...if you'd like
EthanSakurazawa: I'd be honored
YwamKenichi: I… don't think I should...I don't think I'd want to leave if I stayed, knowing that we won't be seeing each other for a long time.
*YwamKenichi gets up abruptly
*EthanSakurazawa grabs Ken's pant leg
YwamKenichi: ?
*EthanSakurazawa stares into Ken's eyes
YwamKenichi: Ethan?
EthanSakurazawa: .....................................'I can't........'
EthanSakurazawa: ....No...nothing Ken
YwamKenichi: Are you sure?
*EthanSakurazawa lets go
YwamKenichi: . . .
*EthanSakurazawa is just silent
YwamKenichi: Then...goodbye Ethan!
*YwamKenichi runs out
*YwamKenichi runs to elevator, pushes the "down" button and waits
YwamKenichi: |ding| |ding| *rushes into elevator and pushes the button for "Lobby"*
*EthanSakurazawa gets up and leans against the hotel room window…and places his hand against the glass
EthanSakurazawa: …Ken… *twitches hand on glass…*
*EthanSakurazawa falls to floor slowly as gags of sobs come heaving out of his throat
EthanSakurazawa: Kennn!! KEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNN!! KEEEEEN!!!! *falls down completely and screams and thrashes about…crying uncontrollably*
*YwamKenichi crumples down into corner of elevator, wishing to disappear
YwamKenichi: I always hurt the ones I love the most...
*YwamKenichi starts tearing again while the elevator continues to descend
*EthanSakurazawa stares at floor where he dropped his jacket...reaches into pocket and gradually draws out a match pack from "Free Sausages"
EthanSakurazawa: ………….silent gaze*……*flips it over to reveal a #* O.O?
YwamKenichi: I...I love you, Ethan...
*YwamKenichi buries his face into the folds of his sleeves
YwamKenichi: *looks up*.…………Suoh?....


to be continued…